In My Heart

I shouldn't have asked her to get on my bike;
I shouldn't have wanted to take a ride with her;
I shouldn't have dreamed about
spending as much time as I can with her.

When she hesitated,
Ignored,
rejected,
ridiculed,
created excuses,
I should have taken a step back.

I should have had the strength to accept
when I realized there was no love there.
I should have taken a step back,
yet I stayed too long.
So, I had to fall apart,
and right now it hurts me
exactly where I used to hold her.

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